路是我選的!

時間倒回填志願的時候
是我親筆寫下私立大學第一志願"實踐大學-媒體傳達設計系"
接到我考上的電話時
真的覺得~為自己的人生做了個明智的決定
比照那時
這四年的我卻是時時再逃避責任
以前那個愛畫畫的我不見了
曾經整天不上課在畫畫
如今上著可以畫畫的課卻久久提不起筆來
夢想可以在這方面有所成就
卻成了一個壓力來源
大學四年難道就這樣混過去嗎?
今天經過巨匠電腦
看到dm裡有教CG.3d Max人物和動畫場景設計突然好想去學喔!
我也會懷疑~
我們這樣學四年
連3d max基本操作都搞不懂的大有人在
去巨匠學得人是不是幾個月下來就比我們強了呢?
想法是很重要
但四年下來~
我的想法還是常常不被老師們接受
到頭來好像搞得更混淆了~
最後 覺得是不是還是要回歸自己的想法 做自己
或許 品味多少提高了些吧
但四年學費不便宜...
想到蹉跎四年就很後悔
但人家說 後悔總比沒發現的好^^(出自日劇:工作狂^^)
我或許很幸運主修被當
所以 哈 我還有一年
我不想在後悔
我討厭後悔的感覺
想補充實力
然後賺下自己的第一台數位單眼相機
第一次用自己的錢去日本自助旅行
用自己的錢學想學的東西
請別忘了填寫自願卡的初衷

leave out

well~sometimes I just felt left out~is it good or bad?I don't know...maybe that's some kind of cause and effect. Many many disappointments happen these days~i remember when i was in saudi whenever i face this kind of situation i go swimming, playing basketball or dancing~ha....it's so different from these day~i need to find a way out...there's no one could dance with me, no place to go sporting........today when i singing at home i just felt weird in a sudden...why those things become so hard to do...what's wrong with my world? remind me of the movie "I am legend.".....who's the different one? who really needs to be cured?even the friendships are more beautiful.those happy days................................................................only remain in my heart. i think my soul need to catch up my world. so stop!!!sh..........!!i know you can do it~and i will keep singing at home.